The Anti-Train: Day 6

Have you ever been overweight or underweight?

I have been overweight for all of my life.  The “skinniest” I ever have been is when I was in high school.  I was a varsity swimmer and threw up every five seconds because of stress.  So I lost a buttload of weight.  Even then I thought I was fat.  And I suppose, in my own head I was, mainly because I am truly just THAT built.  I was a size 6 on the bottom and a 12/14 on top.  To say I’m wide is an understatement :P.  Built like an linebacker might be more apropos.  I love my body shape itself now and can appreciate what having this structure does for me, but my love for it was not quite as big back then.  No, that’s wrong.  More that I didn’t understand there’s skinny and there’s fit.  Can a person be skinny and fit?  Sure.  Can a person have a load of fat and be fit?  Sure.  But I didn’t see fit as a form of smaller than fat if that makes sense.  But now?  I have no need to be “skinny”, nor is it particularly possible, so I guess that’s a good thing!  :P  So here’s to getting fit and healthy.

“Adopting the right attitude can convert a negative stress into a positive one.” ~ Hans Selye

Check-In: I weigh in on Fridays generally (sometimes Saturdays if my Fridays are nuts).  Four down, which puts me "officially" under 200, i.e. based on the WW scale, which is my official.  I really cannot ask for better than this considering it still hasn't been the best food week and minimal working out.  But tonight a run on the tready and tomorrow morning back outside!  Going to go for a five mile run.  Whoo!!!

The Anti-Train: Day 5

Is there any specific event you want to lose the weight for?

There is no one specific event, but there are some things coming up.
11/24 (Turkey Day): MY BIRTHDAY
12/25: Xmas
January 2012: Courthouse wedding for two of my best friends and I really want to wear what the original goal dress for prom last year was (chaperone, not attending :P)
May 2010: another graduation – last year was at 217, this one? Well, I want to drop it like a tot, I mean,  drop it like it’s hot…

“Fall down seven times, get up eight.” – Chinese Proverb

 (This is meant to be dressed up fitspo... who doesn't want those guns???)

Anti-Train: Day 4

Do you workout? How many days a week?

Ok, well, there's the goal and then there's the reality. Luckily, my goals are actually becoming reality lately. Oy.

The ultimate goal is 5-6 days a week of at least 45 minutes of circuit training (i.e. getting in both ST and cardio). Right now if I get in a half hour mostly daily, I'm happy. I tend to not track when I pop in the ipod and dance around like a nut, but that's what's working for me right now. I tend to not track it because then it's just a little too much like work and right now I need to keep it, mentally and emotionally, as just something I do for me and to relax me. So when I track, it's my runs and my ST.

Changing up that program for now as well. Going to make the expectations a weeeeee bit easier on myself. Which we all know is shocking. I HAVE to get back to the running though, I've been majorly slacking and I have both a 8k and a 15k in December - the 15k is December 3rd. So time to ramp it back up again. I expect I'll be able to get 9 back under my belt, if I stick with it. So here's to keeping me honest and on it.

"Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be." - John Wooden

Anti-Train: Day 3

Are you rocking the anti gain train?! Best news ever? Unofficially back in the 1's. Whew!!! Onto the fun!! If you're just joining in, join in!  Whether you respond to this post, or just do it privately, I still recommend typing it into a saved document or writing it in a journal.  It will help hold you accountable!

Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?

I most consciously count points right now with WeightWatchers, but I do still keep my hand in on the calorie front. Although, I track foods on sparkpeople not to track calories so heavily, but to track some of the other nutrients (like my archnemisis, sodium). My points allowance per day is 31 and my calorie range per sp is 1220-1550. My goal is to stay at the lower end of the range when I’m not being good about freggies, the higher end is fine if I am doing up the freggies (i.e. freggies are freebies on WW).

“All of our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them.” – Walt Disney

The Anti-Train: Day 2

No intention whatsoever of gaining a single pound, much less 12-20!  I am ridiculously excited that I have 10 "friends" on sparkpeople who are doing this with me.  Feel free to join in!  Whether "vocally" or just writing down the answers for yourself.  If you want to join in, I would recommend somehow documenting your answers - this way you can't forget them!

What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest)

 I never want to look in the mirror again and feel utterly bad about myself, much less at the expense of someone else. I grew my spine back, now it’s time to make the self confidence happen. And I can. And I will. I’m doing good and making it happen. Are you?

“Forget what has hurt you in the past, but never forget what it taught you.” Etiquette for a Lady

The Anti-Train

Did you know that the average person gains between 12-20 pounds during the holiday season? I.e. from Halloween until Christmas (although I'd certainly add until New Year's from my own observations). Clearly, I do not want this to happen to me. I fully intend to be anti-average. Who would have thought I'd want to be anti-anything?!

So part of this process for me will be tracking everything, everyday. Also, checking in daily, blogging, etc. I.e. being held accountable. So for those of you who wish to join in on this little daily check-in, feel free to blog your answers to the daily questions. (Ok, let's be reasonable, possible almost daily :P).

Day 1: How tall are you, what do you currently weigh, and what do you hope to weigh after the 60 days? (Be Realistic)
I am 5'3, currently weighing 203.6 pounds at WW on Friday weigh-ins (yup, back in the 2's due to NO willpower when the rents come to visit), and I hope to weigh around 185 (less than I did in middle school!).  (Luckily I'm already down to 200.6... let's keep this up!)

Wisdom of the day: Had we not loved ourselves at all, we could never have been obliged to love anything. So that self-love is the basis of all love.
Thomas Traherne

Um...

It's an overwhelming kind of week.  I'm not going to lie, when I'm done running on Sunday, life will be officially good again.  That is the last of the craziness of my current life.

So all we need to do is pray I'm going to make it that far.  One day at a time...